A Loss

Yesterday I found out that my Uncle had left this earth. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I set myself up to be by the water to speak with my precious Aunt. There was no answer. I came home and then the call came. Although I knew I was deeply uncomfortable, she made me feel cared for. It was her husband who had just passed and yet she was doing her best to keep me cool. This is how this lady and her man always were to me.
Rocks of Parents to some pretty awesome kids and Rocks to the kids that didn’t belong to them. When I think back and look over the love that permeated the house where my cousins lived with their parents, it makes me feel glad I got to be a part of it.
My Uncle was one of the tough on the outside and tender on the inside kind of men. There were moments that weren’t all blissful but you still knew that love umbrellad that family.
My Aunt lost a precious son also. 17 yrs old. We have this bond forever etched upon our souls.
I just wanted to say thank you for showing me what love was.
I am thinking about you all today, as you celebrate his life and his welcome into the summerland.
I love you.


My Boy

Another incident today, accidental, shouldn’t have happened. According to my boy.

Gheesh but a lot of stuff has been going on. I made a statement just a bit ago that problems seem to keep piling up right outside my front door. It just isn’t him, to be sure, it’s a lot of things.

I was concerned when I didn’t hear from him and instead of my usual “Oh Well” this time it took a different turn. What if, because of all the teenagedom angst he is dealing with. Wait, this boy is dealing with a lot more that just teenagedom, he seriously had to deal with some ugliness. Anyway, because of what happened and perhaps he got scared out of his head and did something permanent and stupid.

I cried a tad when I talked to his older brother, saying I just don’t know where his head is at.

When I did talk to the offender, my boy, he made some very interesting and mature statements.

I listened.

I then told him, “Son, you have this amazing life in front of you, now is the time to look ahead a couple of years and think where you might like to be. Right now, if you keep doing these little mess ups, your whole life can change” Stay on the yellow brick road and look forward.