Change up the attitude

I am trying my best to keep my head above all the chaos, fakers and people who just hate. It’s not always an easy road to take, that yellow brick road that I just know leads to ultimate happiness.

These last months, 12 to be exact, have been the most excruciating days I’ve ever had to exist through. Me, along with my precious children. But, oh the lessons learned.

I’ve met some interesting and really cool people on my path of the yellow brick road. I’ve come to the realization that people will say and do what they must to get what they need from a person. Since I don’t operate this way it’s taken me a long ole time to come to this conclusion. I can’t even wear my rose colored glasses half down my nose, they must come off!  Period.

Even people that I thought I could trust, slam me with their shitballs.  It’s okay though,  I do know who is who now.

It’s getting real close to the anniversary of my most severe shock ever. I don’t know how to feel about that one. I just know since October the deep sadness began all over again. I am looking forward to February. That is when my New Year will start. Been saying that for a while, hope it works out for me.

I still have to be the rock of this family and the cracks are just growing wider and wider these days. Sometimes I just want to run away but since the Gypsy Woman has to slow her roll, I think about it a lot and just keep my feets right  here!

Bottom line, if you aren’t real, stay the flip away from me. I don’t want to play with you anymore.