Some vents

Well, these days I am right smack in the middle of “teendom”….My oldest son at home has decided he would like to go and live with his father.  Til this becomes his life he is working hard to make things difficult at home.  All the brothers are starting to get on each other, they start to play like the little bear cubs that they have always been in my eyes, then things tend to get ugly quick!  I feel like all I do right now is be the ref!!  I’ve decided to let him go to his Dad’s, after some serious prayers and consideration…My first reaction was no way, that was in March now I just want him to be happy and if this is what he wants I will no longer deny him that.  My hope is that he gets what he wants which is special attention by being the only child there and the fact that his Dad has money.  Like I said I just want him to be happy and not resent me later for keeping him where he doesn’t want to be.

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Looking

I wasn’t looking for a pretty face,

           It had to be a deeper beauty.

One that felt tremendous mercy towards the others,

           One who felt the urgency as I, the urgency to find one another.